Why Funerals Are a Good Way to Start a Decade

“How’s that little boy?” he asked as he pointed to the row my mom was sitting on, there in the back of the sanctuary, helping me find my seat. “He’s great. Growing so fast,” I quickly responded as I clutched the program for the first funeral of the decade I would attend. “Good. That’s what we care about,” he said, … Read More

Gaining a Beautiful Perspective From Your Storm

The sky was painted with the most gorgeous pinks, oranges, yellows, and blues. I couldn’t resist taking a photograph of how they highlighted the Blue Ridge Mountains. Even my 3 year old piped up from the back seat, “Mom! Take a picture! Take a picture of the sunset!” It was a work of art we didn’t want to forget. “Do … Read More

God Really Does Set The Lonely In Families

I know about being lonely. Life’s loneliness can feel so overwhelming, can’t it, my friend? I know what it’s like to be without a dad this side of Heaven. I know what it’s like as a young woman to feel the burden trying to assume the role of the “man of the house” when there was no man left in … Read More

Im(manuel)

I’m having trouble concentrating on anything today other than the giant belly that sits between my computer and me. It’s spring and there is so much new life blossoming outside. Each year, the seasons wax and wane with an untold story of what will bloom and what will remain barren. Even when the petals vary, the roots remain. Only the … Read More

What to Do When Even Christmas Offends You

Last Christmas, I was a mess. Four months prior, I lost my first child- a miracle child- to miscarriage. My world stopped spinning for a while and so much offended me. Things that were part of my regular rhythms weren’t cutting it for my broken heart. Going to church didn’t feel safe for me, but I went anyway. I was surrounded by … Read More

More Than Stumps

I was burning hot mad. Someone had invaded my territory off my watch and massacred my yard along with the symbols of Spring’s hope that my fragile soul was clinging to. And the invasion came within inches of my child’s grave. The day before was supposed to be our due date. My husband and I had withdrawn to a quiet … Read More

What A Mother With Empty Arms Can Do

This coming Sunday will be a year since I labored to deliver the remains of my only child’s body. It was too soon for a delivery like that to bring breaths into this world. Before he could breathe in the polluted oxygen of earth, he took his first breath in the pristine air of Heaven. I knew about him for … Read More

Excavating

I like to think that I’m good at multi-tasking. I really do. Sometimes, if I plan well, I can accomplish much of my to-do list. But if I’m going to do something really really well, I can’t give 100% to it all. This month, I’ve been focusing on scaling back in my blog writing to try to tackle the huge … Read More

The Divine Hand that Wounds Also Heals

It’s no secret that when Royal Consort Prince Albert died at the age of 42, his wife, Queen Victoria entered into deep mourning for the rest of her life. She wore black every single day until she died because she missed her beloved Albert so very much. Soon after he died, people of course extended their offerings of care and … Read More

Waiting for the Sequel

This week is just weird. It feels like a really long, sad movie is coming to an end. But there’s a sequel that is already in production. What would have been Manuel’s due date is coming up in a few days- March 30th.  Though our baby has already gone to be with Jesus, we are here waiting, expectantly. Waiting. Waiting … Read More