How Do I Get Through This?

As an enneagram 6, I often run through the worst-case scenarios because I want to brace myself for what may or may not happen. Enneagram sixes’ greatest “vice” is fear. For me, my fears often stem from the fact that I’ve experienced the worst and been slammed to the ground by the worst: a cancer diagnosis for my dad & … Read More

More Than Stumps

I was burning hot mad. Someone had invaded my territory off my watch and massacred my yard along with the symbols of Spring’s hope that my fragile soul was clinging to. And the invasion came within inches of my child’s grave. The day before was supposed to be our due date. My husband and I had withdrawn to a quiet … Read More

What A Mother With Empty Arms Can Do

This coming Sunday will be a year since I labored to deliver the remains of my only child’s body. It was too soon for a delivery like that to bring breaths into this world. Before he could breathe in the polluted oxygen of earth, he took his first breath in the pristine air of Heaven. I knew about him for … Read More

Excavating

I like to think that I’m good at multi-tasking. I really do. Sometimes, if I plan well, I can accomplish much of my to-do list. But if I’m going to do something really really well, I can’t give 100% to it all. This month, I’ve been focusing on scaling back in my blog writing to try to tackle the huge … Read More

The Divine Hand that Wounds Also Heals

It’s no secret that when Royal Consort Prince Albert died at the age of 42, his wife, Queen Victoria entered into deep mourning for the rest of her life. She wore black every single day until she died because she missed her beloved Albert so very much. Soon after he died, people of course extended their offerings of care and … Read More

Waiting for the Sequel

This week is just weird. It feels like a really long, sad movie is coming to an end. But there’s a sequel that is already in production. What would have been Manuel’s due date is coming up in a few days- March 30th.  Though our baby has already gone to be with Jesus, we are here waiting, expectantly. Waiting. Waiting … Read More

When Love Shows Up

Over a year ago, I jotted down a note from my Pastor’s sermon, “Love shows up when everyone else is leaving.” I haven’t been able to get that out of my mind since then. The quote has been set before me as a challenge to try to show up after the dust has settled in the midst of terribly hard … Read More

My Favorite Books of 2014

2014 was a year packed full of probably the most reading I’ve accomplished in one year of my life ever. I even mentioned it in my Christmas letter this year because it was such a big deal for this eager, yet slow reader to have read 5,337 pages from 21 books! (Being assigned a ton of reading for a semester … Read More

A Letter of Purpose To My Son

Manuel Elias Meyer and His Purpose Written by his Mother, Emily Ann Pereira Meyer          God knew you before you were even born. He ordered the number of your days. He gave purpose to each one of those days. He made you full of purpose for each one of those days. We knew about you before most … Read More

And Lo{w}

A friend recently asked me what scripture verse was encouraging me the most lately. Without hesitating, I responded, “…And lo, I am with you always, even to the very end of the age.” (Matthew 28:20b, NKJV) I reasoned from my literary mind as to why this meant so much to me right now. I know this passage is what sums up the … Read More