I’ve seen a lot of interesting things in the parking lot of our local movie theater…teenie boppers lined up for the Jonas Brothers Movie, the Oscar Meyer Weiner mobile, multitudes of refillable popcorn buckets…But tonight, I saw the God’s promise.
I was in the middle of pouring out my heart to my husband about how 10 years ago at a youth retreat, we had to talk about where we saw ourselves in 10 years. I was telling him that some of it had come true, but there were things that had not yet, which disappointed me. A lot of it has to do with our current circumstances and the constant reminders around us that certain things just cannot be right now. I was really heavy hearted. In the middle of my sorrow, my darling said to me, “But those were your plans, not God’s plans. He has an even greater plan for you.” That hit me square in the mouth. But, I still was struggling with swallowing it all.
As we were pulling out of the parking space, my husband slammed on the breaks and put the car in park and simply said, “Woah,” and lifted his eyes to the sky. I picked my gaze up off the floor mat and beheld what he did…a mix of white and dark grey clouds through the rain speckled windshield with a single raindrop trickling down like a stream of tears…and…a rainbow.
All I could say was, “God is such a stinker.” He surely was listening to my heartache at that moment. In my mind I was having a wrestling match with Him. I knew He was real and that He cared for me, I just didn’t like my circumstances. But then, He reminded me that if His promise to Noah was true, his other promises to the rest of us were absolutely true as well. I could literally see his honesty in the sky. We sat there and watched the rainbow fade, but reminded ourselves that His promises never fade.
He has promised that He will never leave me or forsake me. He has promised that He knows the plans for me- for a hope and a future. He has promised that He will provide all of my needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus. He has promised that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. He has promised that He makes all things beautiful in His time. He has promised that His grace is sufficient for me.
It’s not about me. It’s about His plans and His story. I GET to be a part of His.story.
Every time the old hymn by Helen H. Lemmel, “Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus,” is sung in church, I remind my husband that I want this played at my funeral. Maybe you’ll understand once you read the words…
- O soul, are you weary and troubled?
No light in the darkness you see?
There’s light for a look at the Savior,
And life more abundant and free!
Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.
- Through death into life everlasting
He passed, and we follow Him there;
O’er us sin no more hath dominion—
For more than conquerors we are!
- His Word shall not fail you—He promised;
Believe Him, and all will be well:
Then go to a world that is dying,
His perfect salvation to tell!
When I saw that rainbow tonight I was looking full into His wonderful face. And the things of earth grew strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace.
Oh yeah. I actually saw 2 rainbows this evening.